A couple of weeks ago I had to make one of the most difficult decisions of my life. I made the decision to end my one year relationship to a very loving man. As great as the man himself may be the relationship I felt was not right.
Now as I am trying to make some sense to not only my life but the thoughts in my head and the feelings I dont understand. I remember just how much I hate the dating "game" It seems so ridiculous to me. Once again I am stuck in a tug of war in my head............
- I deserve my perfect match and I would rather be single than be in a Mediocre relationship
- I am worried about being alone, possibly never have children of my own
Now I know I am not alone. I have a great support system, my friends and family are always no more than a phone call away. Please do not be confused I have a great life and I am not unhappy. I have amazing relationships - ones intimate to my heart. So why then do I feel like something is missing. Is it God? Is it my unfound other half? Is it children?
I know that I will figure all of these things out - I always do - it is just a matter of time.
On a lighter note - I was able to visit my sister and my wonderful nieces and nephews. It was a great time and I got all the hugs a girl could ask for.
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I know how tough the last few weeks have been and I know you already know this but I'm here for you if you need anything.
Like always I have a little something to say:
If you feel like something is missing, odds are it's God. If He is filling you up you will NEVER feel empty - the other stuff (your other half, the kids, friends, family) that will all be extra. Even if you want them to be the thing that fills you they can't be. And you will only end up hurting them and yourself if you look to them for that.
Much Love!
I love you! That's all I have to say.
Can't add much that Amber hasn't already said so "ditto"!! I love you and know that God does have a plan for your life - much more wonderful than anything you could ever dream of yourself.
Seek first the kingdom of God, and
all these things will be added unto
you.
Love, Dad
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