A couple of weeks ago I had to make one of the most difficult decisions of my life. I made the decision to end my one year relationship to a very loving man. As great as the man himself may be the relationship I felt was not right.
Now as I am trying to make some sense to not only my life but the thoughts in my head and the feelings I dont understand. I remember just how much I hate the dating "game" It seems so ridiculous to me. Once again I am stuck in a tug of war in my head............
- I deserve my perfect match and I would rather be single than be in a Mediocre relationship
- I am worried about being alone, possibly never have children of my own
Now I know I am not alone. I have a great support system, my friends and family are always no more than a phone call away. Please do not be confused I have a great life and I am not unhappy. I have amazing relationships - ones intimate to my heart. So why then do I feel like something is missing. Is it God? Is it my unfound other half? Is it children?
I know that I will figure all of these things out - I always do - it is just a matter of time.
On a lighter note - I was able to visit my sister and my wonderful nieces and nephews. It was a great time and I got all the hugs a girl could ask for.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
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